I found a feather the other day while on a run at Fort Henry. What is so special about a feather, some of you may be asking? I felt the same way until quite recently, but recovering from a brain injury has changed me and the way that I see and interpret things around me now. What once would easily have gone unnoticed or worse yet, have been brushed aside as futile, now holds my attention longer and brings meaning into my life.
Given the severity of my anxiety most days and the unwelcome mood swings that bring me down, one may not believe that I am even capable of noticing a feather beneath my feet.
There it lay, one solitary feather upon the dew covered ground with all of its bright, brilliant colours waiting to be found. Released during flight from a feathered creature in passing.
“Blue Jay feathers are seen to be bringers of light and joy. … Blue Jay feathers are also known to symbolize power of healing. When in need of wisdom, finding a blue jay’s feather can signify that you are coming into a time of your life when you will understand your power, and how to weld it.”
I have lived with the darkness of depression in my life, so with welcoming arms, I embraced the “light” and “joy” that shone from this precious quill. I graciously received the symbolic “power of healing” from the Blue Jay’s love. Lastly, I was humbled with the knowing that I was coming into a time of “understanding ” in my life. When things will eventually begin to make a little more sense than they have in the past. I was gifted a feather from our Creator. The Great Spirit asked a Blue Jay, to place one of his feathers on my path which would awaken the earth spirit in my heart.
A few days later, when I was running alone at Lemoine Point Conservation Area, with the heat and humidity slowing my pace to a crawl, I found even more feathers on the trail in front of me.
This time however, I realized in the moment, that these feathers were not random findings along the way but rather symbolic messages being sent from our Creator on the spiritual planes. Finding feathers, makes me feel happy inside and reminds me that I am becoming more aware of the little things around me that bring meaning and contentment into my lonely, turbulent life.
We are all living creatures, dependent upon mother earth. The relationships that we form with the land as well as with the animals, makes life worth living. Birds offer guidance and become an orchestrated symphony of joy.
The challenges of mental illness extends beyond what the eyes are able to see. My disabilities are invisible to most people but no less severe than those that can be seen. A feather came into my life and awakened my awareness. A nudge from spirit to reconnect my soul with mother earth.
The birds of DreamCatcher Farm have left feathers on my path. What is always a most enjoyable day with the horses becomes even more magical when I pick up a feather and know that someone is watching over me from beyond. I found two feathers at the farm this morning and sadly, I forgot both of them there. I have been keeping all of the feathers gifted to me as sacred gifts from the circle of life. Sensing my disappointment, our loving Creator bestowed up me, yet a third beautiful feather,only hours later, which I bent down to retrieve in a parking lot, minutes before seeing my Psychologist.
I have found a sense of peace in finding feathers along my journey, wherever it might take me. The sound of crickets chirping on a summer afternoon as the Mennonites pass on the road in their horse drawn wagon, quiets my anxious spirit. Strong north west winds cool my brow and offer a generous tailwind to a flock of Canadian Geese passing overhead on their way north. Be grateful when you come across feathers of any size or shape and know that your angel is near!